I Want My Husband to Forgive Me!

I am a 32 year-old woman who has been married to a wonderful 8man for almost two years.  We've been together for almost six years.  Last year my husband gave me a credit card and I racked up $50,000 in debt and put my marriage in jeopardy!  We were best friends and did a lot together.  Since I went crazy and started shopping with his credit card it has been a tumultuous relationship.  I honestly think he hates me.  What should I do?  I am desperate!  I haven thought about so many horrible things  to pay him back so we could live in harmony again, I can't take it anymore!